My dosing theory for “scary” drugs (and a poke at the trashy values of the collective and how they affect me)

These drugs have two things in common; one is their incredible efficacy when used by rational, lucid people who want to live a full healthy life:

cocaine, amphetamine, methamphetamine, methylphenidate (narcolepsy, ADD, off-label depression)

morphine, heroin, codeine, oxy’s, opium, tramadol, buprenorphine (chronic pain, off-label depression, anxiety)

marijuana (sedation/stimulation, anxiety, pain relief, depression)

benzodiazepines, barbiturates (sedation, anxiety)

psilocybin (pain, depression)

The second thing they have in common is the difficulty getting a prescription for them because they are either illegal, or stupid people exist in the world; so instead of letting them voluntarily take themselves out of the gene pool like nature intended, the State, many moons ago, had taken upon its self the uninvited task of taking care of these dullards at the expense of my liberty and my right to procure the drug of my choice, in the name of some false “altruism” or “greater good” because maladroits get themselves into trouble with drugs (as if they wouldn’t without drugs); and somehow society would become a dangerous or less safe place otherwise, or some such nonsense.

It’s telling that, because we’re caught in this frame of nanny-statism and legalities, one of the main things drug researchers peel their eyes for, like hawks, are drugs that make us feel really good, too good, too soon. Fear of litigation is a reason we have “safe”, mediocre, usually inefficacious modern psychiatric drugs that have little value and crappy side-effects, yet are continually stuffed down the throats of trusting, half-witted souls, a few of whom actually get some benefit (bless you)… I wonder if visionary, progressive pdocs who have to dole out this junk feel any kind of guilt or frustration. I know that I would feel weary if I could not script, off-label, drugs like methamphetamine (desoxyn), laudanum (yes, it still exists in the pharm repertoire) or marijuana.

~But, I think there’s something else afoot here as well:

…”‘k, so you guys at MumsdrugCo have developed this drug that gets rid of depression. Right on; I could sure use it. Umm, can I try it? No? It makes volunteers in clinical studies too happy… so it’ll make me feel really good, and… we, don’t… want this… do we? ‘K, I guess you guys know what you’re doing… I suppose. Umm, I have to tell you though: all the antidepressants I’ve tried over the years have done nothing for me except make me feel worse. I felt better when I didn’t take them at all. I’ll tell you what did work very well, though; opium and dextroamphetamine; dextroamphetamine worked on an as-needed basis, maybe twice a week. Then I discovered that opium targeted as much of an extent what was wrong with me. Opium cycled on for a while, then cycled off for a month, then back on really does help me a lot.

“You say I shouldn’t do that? Why? I could get into trouble with it? Know something? I think you’re projecting; I think you could get into trouble with it because you would doubt yourselves in my situation. Know what else? I think, because you and the legislators who govern you don’t trust yourselves, you won’t let drugs through that could benefit so many smart people, and now we all have to suffer because of stupid people and your own self-doubt. And as usual, given the reigns of state authority, like any cop, doctor or politician, notwithstanding your fear of litigation, you feel free and qualified to impose your values upon me; and the things you value are more often than not, of little value.”

Jesus and John Galt wept.

~Certain patients who can’t take care of themselves or are not capable of thinking rationally or projecting plans for the future should follow the advice of their doctors only, and ignore the following…

…but for those of us who crave a happy productive life, “scary” drugs are, in my opinion, among the best for what ails rational people. Some get positive results from taking very small, scientific daily “lifting” doses, titrating up when necessary, then after a few months, tapering down and off for a period of time (maybe a month; maybe two); then starting again. I don’t think it’s in our interest to take any psych drug, pharm or not, continuously without cycling off (well, more serious cases like schizophrenia or bipolar might be a different story). The brain is plastic and in a state of constant homeostasis, and I think more harm than good results from a constant bombardment of exogenous chemicals… who do you want to be when you’re seventy?

…I would rather live a month or two with depression, knowing that I’m going to feel better again in a while when I resume dosing up, than take a chance that my personal chemistry hasn’t had a time of rest and a chance to get back to “normal”, as bad as “normal” might be (and who knows? maybe I’ll feel better drug-free for a while, or…?). I don’t want my neurons (at least) to be permanently twisted some day…

…so I think cycling on and off is the way to go if one doses every day. I’m in a cycling off period right now because, frankly, I think doctors are up their asses with daily scientific fixed dosing. I don’t buy into the theory that the body must take this smooth bombardment, on and on, even when the patient knows in their gut it’s time to taper off, at least for a while.

~So in one week I’ll be opiate-free, and will not take it for at least one month. I’ll keep you posted on how I feel during this time. It has not been hard to taper; I should say rather, it hasn’t been hard because I’ve had some great help from benzo’s for anxiety, trazodone to knock me for the night, and baclofen (an amazing wonder drug) for everything else; wow, this combo works well.

~Another dosing schedule is possible; if one prefers to not dose every day, dosing every three days, or twice a week can work too. It’s not “scientific”, in that the body doesn’t have a constant level of chemical within, but who can tell me that a doctor knows best what works for me if I achieve acceptable results taking a substance on an as-needed basis?… and besides, how do we know that it is not healthier to keep the body on alert and “guessing” what’s going to happen next, instead of on a predictable course of action that the body sees through, laughs at and compensates for?…

…so, when I start dosing again in about five weeks, I’m going to try this theory and let you know how it goes…

…I think we’re going to be pleasantly surprised.

~Now, if only these market products were available, unscripted, from legal vendors, would we finally be free to experiment openly and share our results with each other instead of having to skulk about on the net, like criminals. Imagine the added bonus of lower prices thanks to competition and no Organised Crime dictating cornered markets.

…oh well. I can dream for that day.

~Let me know what works for you. Feel free to talk about any drug used off-label for the last six months at least, and what your system is. I’m curious.

Is there a ceiling for heroin use? Apparently so…

‘K, this isn’t a post about the virtues of tax-funded “harm reduction”, so please humour me and allow me a little diatribe…

~rant/on~

I’m one of those right/libertarian meanies who likes watching people in wheelchairs being forced to park at the outside edge of the Walmart parking lot and wheel in and out of traffic to get to the handicapped-unfriendly, normal-people-doors and wants the state out of his life if he hasn’t committed violence or theft. But with liberty and freedom comes self-responsibility; you want drug programs? Not with my cash. Get your grubby hands out of my pockets and take care of your own business if you’ve acquired an addiction…

…and don’t give me shit about “harm reduction” saving legal and medical resources. There would be less harm if the government would look at the whole picture and study why the drug war is futile, why organised crime is so powerful, why state methadone programs are not very successful, why the police-budget and resources are stretched, why health-care costs are higher than they need to be… then get the hell out and stop making such a fucking mess of it…

…now that would be “harm reduction”.

The point is, all drugs should be legal and taken out of the black market and allowed in the open market, and social programs for the drug-addled squished underfoot. This would radically lower drug prices for the under-class, save as much money as any fucking soul-crushing welfare program and justly disallow positive rights for parasites who otherwise develop a sense of entitlement to my hard-earned money.

~rant/off~

…Thank you for your patience.   ;D    Maybe I should have saved that rodomontade for another post but, well, I just had to get it out of m’system.

~Junkies die in the streets. Lots ‘n lots of them. Why? I have an idea why, and when I think of it, I become pretty fucking angry; angry at the tsk tsking Immaculate who cannot stand the thought of people doing things they wouldn’t do, for fear of some mythical “breakdown of society” that would leave all and sundry raving and slavering in the streets, eyeing wives and daughters and productive mens’ wallets while businesses, houses and government buildings burn to the ground. This is the demographic that could, with a collective word, tell the politicians, “enough is enough”, and free the markets just a little more and allow a product in that should never have been taken out

…I don’t blame the pols, the cops, or Big Pharma; the blame, and the power, lie completely with the Conservative Immaculate.

You see, there’s something that’s been going on for a few years concerning drug legalisation; The Swiss heroin experiments allow users to buy unlimited amounts of clean product. “What?”, you gasp. “These junkies are going to die in a twisted carnival-land of smack! They’re gonna wind up, one on every street corner, swaying and nodding in unison, knocking their heads on newspaper stands and light poles!”

Sorry to burst your righteous bubble, Moses. You probably don’t want to hear this, but apparently there’s a limit to how much heroin a junky craves. And when the junk is clean and free of contaminants, properly inexpensive and legally accessible, the junky not only doesn’t crave more and more, but tends to find employment, become a social member of society and uh… not die…

…you see, when drugs are legal and in the markets, people just like you and me who haven’t necessarily hurt anyone, who were once stigmatised as criminals and sub-humans scurrying about, like cockroaches, searching for drugs in and out of the cracks of the surface-world and the under-world… suddenly aren’t criminals.

Suddenly, these people are allowed to breathe, to pause, to take their bearing, to walk out of the night and out of the cracks in the concrete with dignity, to watch the sunrise while walking out their homes rather than wearily stumbling into them, to make a plan and carry it through… because society has finally let these isolated ones know that one who takes a drug isn’t necessarily a thief or a thug; just a person like everyone else.

~The evidence from the Swiss Heroin Program suggests that when a user isn’t stressed by everything surrounding the illegality of the drug and he feels safe, secure and included within his society, there is an upper limit to his drug use; when he can see over his once-smoggy horizon, and into better, fertile lands, the evidence suggests that he is more likely to be inspired and motivated to change his priorities, make better and life-affirming plans, look less favourably on his past and the drug that fueled it and start taking less and less of it…

…we don’t need social programs to make this happen… we just need the will, wit and wisdom to let it happen…

…legalise it.